the back of our heads

from what we know 

we’ve got pictures 

in the back of our heads 

so what are we even seeing

if we might not need our eyes? 

from what we know 

our two blues are two different things 

and what you’re feeling

is that the fear I’ve been feeling

who am I in real life? 

for all we know 

we don’t know

what am I 

am I all in my head? 

I’ve gotta go until I figure it out

or I’ll die

from what we know 

comes back harder the farther you go 

so don’t conceal it 

I know we’ve got to heal it 

who am I to decide?

for all we know 

we don’t know 

what am I 

am I all in my head?

I’ve gotta go until I figure it out

or I’ll die 

trying

trying

trying 

chasing your tail and I’m holding it 

it’s overrated, being heroic

we need to renegotiate and you know it 

and holy hell if you can’t get a hold of it 

you’re in a lot of trouble 

you’ve got the nerve 

to think it would be alright..

counting your aces, you can’t hold them down 

no one’s saving no one and not knowing how 

don’t disassociate - you won’t know you’ve drowned

I swear to god if you don’t get a hold of yourself

hold of you, hold of you now

you’re in a lot of trouble and

you’ve got the nerve

to think it would be alright 

to come over here now 

oh you’re in a lot of trouble 

I’m running out of words!

you  gotta fight your devil 

you gotta fight your devil 

you gotta fight your devil 

you gotta fight your devil 

you gotta fight your devil 

you gotta fight your devil 

you gotta fight your devil 

you gotta fight your devil 

you gotta fight your devil 

oh you’re in a lot of trouble 

and I’m running out of words.

you raise your head 

to tell me what I’ve done 

all wrong 

and everything that’s bad 

about the way I talk to you 

what I wouldn’t give for a photograph 

I raise my voice 

to tell you how I feel

I guess

it wasn’t what you needed

and I’m starting to think I’m someone else 

what I wouldn’t give for a photograph

who knows 

and who cares 

you know there isn’t one way 

you raise your head

to tell me what you’ve done

all wrong 

and how all the thoughts you had 

are now gone and they’re hard to get to 

I raise my voice 

to say you’re not alone

I guess 

it died before it reached you

when I thought you looked like someone else

what I wouldn’t give

what I wouldn’t give 

who knows 

and who cares 

you know there isn’t one way 

hear me

talking 

in my sleep

hear

hear me talking in my sleep 

never wanna leave 

hear me screaming out the door 

what are we fighting for?

and you can be right 

or you can be safe 

or you can be a righteous fake 

but you are alive 

you are alive!

even ok

dare I say balanced?

dare I say 

hear me screaming up in arms 

about how you live 

just tell me I’m something 

just tell me I’m focused 

to fall in line 

to set a table 

to follow light 

and you are able 

you are able 

hear me 

talking

in my sleep

secret war 

secret war 

it's a secret war

who okayed this? 

secret war

secret war 

it’s a secret war 

who okayed this? 

secret war

secret war 

it’s a secret war 

who okayed this? 

secret war

secret war 

it’s a secret war 

who okayed this? 

waded through black hearts

and i followed around a circled mess

no one could tell me i was wrong

i knew i had you and you were all

i walked over stones

and lost my shoes

but not the trail of you

barefoot over burning forest floors

together riding out of the storm

even when the birds and worms are

crying

i’m fine

i cannot help myself

i must give you my heart

the best i give

i know i’m blushing but this rock

is hitting me in the head

and even when we’re old

and skin and bones

i will be smiling at you

if i become a ghost living

in your shoes

i’ll walk across the ceiling

i’ll walk across the ceiling

i’ll walk across the ceiling

even when we’re old

and skin and bones

if i become a ghost

i'll walk across the ceiling with you

even when the lonely world is fighting

i’m fine waded through black

followed you out

and now i have you

When it all becomes sound 

la la la la

la la la la 

la la la la

la la la la 

la la la la

la la la la 

la la la la

la la la la 

I am the one (la la la la)

I am the one (la la la la)

I am the one (la la la la)

I am the one (la la la la)

I am the one (la la la la)

I am the one (la la la la)

I am the one (la la la la)

I am the one (la la la la)

found him alive

with a gun by his side

it had been the whole time 

and nobody noticed 

and I’m sure he was fine 

when they read him his rights

followed up with his wife 

and nobody noticed that 

I am the one 

I am the one 

I am the one I am 

I am the one

I am the one 

I am the one I am 

so what now? 

oh, now what? 

so what now? 

oh now…? 

la la la la

la la la la (now what?) 

la la la la

la la la la (now what?) 

la la la la

la la la la (oh)

la la la la

la la la la 

can’t turn it down 

when it all becomes sound

and you’re not above ground 

so I’ll go unnoticed 

and I know what it’s about 

are you in?  are you out?

tell me - what are you now

now that nobody notices? 

and I am the one I am 

oh I am the one! I am the one!

I am the one-  hey! 

oh …

so what now? 

oh now what? 

so what now? 

oh now…

la la la la

la la la la (now what) 

la la la la 

la la la la (now) 

la la la la

la la la la (now what)

la la la la

la la la la

go look in the mirror 

it won’t look like you 

you’re seeing clearer 

than you are used to 

don’t pick up the phone 

you’ve got a right not to 

start listening harder 

than you are used to 

like you used to

you gotta hold it all together 

now you know 

you’re not the only one to get it now 

so speak your truth 

lean in to the weirdness 

we came to do it 

while working though it 

you will find a new lens 

they’ll call you odd 

and we know we’re unusual 

start listening harder 

than you are used to 

like you used to

You got to hold it all together 

now you know 

you're not the only one to get it now 

you get it now!

allow your view to change 

to get away with it 

to get away  

to get away with it 

you’ve got to focus 

to get away with it 

you’ve got to fo- 

oh you’ve got to focus 

got to fo - 

oh you got to focus 

got to fo - 

oh you got to focus 

we learn 

we learn 

we learn 

we learn to learn 

we learn 

we learn to learn 

oh you gotta hold it all together 

hold it all together 

now we now 

(we learn to learn) 

oh you gotta hold it all together now 

hold it all together

(we learn to learn) 

you don’t have to hold it all 

together now 

(we learn to learn) 

you don’t have to hold it 

no 

it’s not yours 

(we learn to learn) 

oh we gotta hold on to each other now 

hold on to each other 

now we know 

oh we gotta hold on to each other now

hold it all 

together 

you are in a desolate hour

and following ground

rejected, abandoned

at every gate

just trying to find a place for your feet

to take care of your own

and to feel some kind of humanness

where did ours go?

where did ours go?

and here we are in our

holy white towers

that look down at you

crossing an ocean

on a fucking three dollar toy

and you wonder why it makes

any sense

why they can’t cross this line

this invisible line

where did ours go?

some kind of humanness

(go)

where did ours go?